My Scary Life Options

[Ross Russell]

I've pretty much always known that I am not a social person.

I have more or less had to force myself to socialize because I thought that that was what I should do.

There have been times in the past when I was able to either work from home or I didn't have to work and I saw almost no one. About the only times that I interfaced with anyone was to buy food at the grocery store.

For the past year and a half, I have been more or less able to make a living working from home. And unlike times past when I have felt the need to force myself to socialize, in New York I feel no compelling reason to force myself to social with the ***king New Yorkers (although I do wonder how many hot German Guys I am NOT getting to have sex with).

The biggest problem with my current lifestyle is mail. A couple of days ago I actually made it to the post office to mail a letter that I should have mailed two weeks earlier. I don't trust putting mail in mail boxes, so I have to go to the post office to mail stuff. And of course going to the post office involves leaving my apartment.

When I wake up in the morning. Or I should say when I wake up around noon, it is always my intent to go out and do something or other. I just never seem to make it out to do something or other.

In fact, and this is scary to even me, I have realized a couple of times at about 8:00 pm that not only had I not left my apartment all day, but I hadn't eaten all day.

I suppose I should go out today. Or maybe I'll do it tomorrow.